Dear The One I Love;
I'm sorry that I no longer wish to live in this pointless world where everything reminds me of you. I'm sorry I chased you away. But most of all, I'm sorry I still remain.
I don't want to see your perfect face every day and remind myself that you're not mine. I don't want to wake up from my medicated sleep with our memories freshly emblazoned in my mind from my dreams every morning. But most of all, I don't want to be a monster anymore.
I can't go on living this way, led on by my own false hope. I want to be dead or brain dead, anything that prevents me from thinking about you. I know that it's my fault that you're so far away, and for that I'll suffer.
Just come back and make my world right again. Take me out of this living Hell. Save me from this impenetrable darkness. Hold me in your arms and make me believe that everything will be alright, like you used to. I would do anything to have you back.
Even though, you abandoned me when I needed you the most, I'll never truly let you go. I guess, that's why it's called falling hopelessly in love, never to return. So, if you don't come back, please then, kill me. Spare me some mercy and release me from my pain of longing for you. Kill me before I kill myself. I no longer care of the injustices.
I just can't find a reason in life without you.