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Please (Don't) Hate MeIf I told you a lie
But it made you smile
Would it still be a sin?
If I opened the door
But turned you away
Would you still come in?

If I sliced my skin
But it didn't hurt
Would it still be wrong?
If I acted all brave
But couldn't face it
Would I still be strong?

If I tied my noose
Around a tree's open arms
Would it be an embrace?
If I left tonight
And begged you stay
Would you still give chase?

If I committed sin
But hurt nobody
Would I be welcome above?
If I do something you hate
But only for your good
Could it still be true love?

Missing YouSince I woke up today
I've been struggling to breathe.
Choking on your name
Asking you not to leave.

It happened again,
I saw you in my dream.
I'm still trying to catch my breath
Trying not to scream.

I need to wipe these tears
I need to blur your face.
Force this heart back into gear,
make it regain its normal pace.

So I'll go get my pills
And I'll bring out the liquor.
Keep on lying to myself
Saying "today I really don't miss her".

But I'm haunted.
Can't get you off my head.
I wish that I would die,
For you to be the one suffering instead.

Why did we fight that night?
How could I let you drive away?
If i knew that you

Today, I cried.December 10th, 2012.

Today I cried.
I wasn't bullied today.
Neither was I bullied yesterday.
Nor am I going to be tomorrow.
But I cried.
Because I relived every moment.
In.
My.
Diary.
And that was enough.
I succumbed to my emotions.

Today I cried.
I wasn't particularly weak today.
Neither was I weak yesterday.
Nor am I going to be weak tomorrow.
But I cried.
Because I relived every moment.
In.
My.
Diary.
And I'm not ashamed.
I succumbed to my emotions.
But... I'm not ashamed.

Today I cried.
And cried.
And... cried.
But that's just the way I am.
Once in a while, you just need a good cry.
To remind yourself of:
the little emotion you hav

Falling. Alone?When will the rain stop falling?
When will the reaper stop calling?
Did I do something wrong?
I must have
To suffer for this long.

It's not like I didn't try,
And it's not like you did
But I never got to ask why
I just ran and hid.

'Honesty is the best policy'
That's what they say
But I doubt they know truth at all,
Being who they are today.
If I could, I'd wish it away
But I can't
So I'm alone today;
Meant to die here this way.

Alone.

Red ScreamsSmiling at me, shiny silver teeth
Begging my wrist
For one chaste
Kiss.

Grinning at me, that evil smirk
Making my heart pound
Going berserk.

So sharp so
Good
I know I
Could
And really I
Would
Because I
Should.

Arm’s too full of blood
Of scars
From attempts to
Join the stars.

Photo album of
Ruby caresses
My diary of my
Crimson lament
Showing one
Statement;
I am still
Alive.

Filled Up

The days have filled you with hours
Hours of immensely
Raging boredom
Parents have filled you with lame safety and sticky demands
Teachers have filled your brain with facts you will never need
Your boss have filled you with rejections of your confidence
Threats
Fear
Yourself
You've just turned 18
And have filled your brain with booze and noise.
So listen when you feel your heart skip a beat…

InfiniteWhen you take my hand,
my breath goes with it.

You're like a book that's too suspenseful to put down.
You keep me wanting to turn the pages to watch the story unfold.

The surprises seem infinite.
With each detail I learn,
I become even more thankful that you came into my life.

Like a song on repeat for hours,
I never tire of seeing your smile or hearing your voice.

With you,
the adventures are endless.
You never cease to amaze me.

Each day that passes,
I fall a little more.
And I know you're there to catch me
before I hit the floor.

FragileI know that you're broken,
And that all your pieces are scattered,
I know that you're bruised,
And that your pale skin is battered.

I can see the scars,
That you're trying to hide,
And I can see the hurt,
Burried beneath your pride.

You're barely holding together,
Your tattered, fraying threads,
The harder you try to keep it in,
The more the hole spreads.

Stop trying to battle alone,
When I'm here with my sword in hand,
I can help you pick up the pieces,
And there'll be nothing we can't withstand.

Don't give up the fight,
My friend who is so fragile,
Take my hand and let me hold you,
Let me love you for a while.

You think

Demons Within"Demons Within"

Have you ever felt like the walls are closing in
And that narrow passageway continues to grow thin?
I can feel these walls pushing, choking my veins
And squeezing out the life in me, leaving me deranged

I can make these walls crumble like an empire
That has been set ablaze through flare and fire
And every burn I make, I can see a demon
Fly out of my skin the more the burn is deepened

These four walls, four corners, and a floor
Captivate all I see and still furthermore
Within these walls I am my own enemy to my skin
When everything hurts; my horrors lay within

I can take myself and from the beginning
I could brea

MockedI'm the girl who is always mocked for how i look
For how i dress
What music i listen to
My opinions
My faults
My everything

I sit in bed and cry
Not because of what they say hurts
Because it does
But because I'm not appreciated

I'm alone
Wondering down a path
Called life
I try my best
But nothing works
I don't eat because I'm "too fat"
I listen to my music loud to block all the words
Those words that will stick in my head
Make me cut again

I don't want that
I just want to be freed
I feel so trapped
I cant explain it

I begin to have feelings for someone
They aren't ever mutual
I sit and realise
Once again my hopes ar

MessEverywhere I go
Every single place
The troubles seem to grow
Every smiling face
Eventually frowns with woe

Why can't I do
Anything right
I just screw
Up everything despite
The happiness I try to spew

Is it me
Am I the source of this ache
Does the pain flow free
Is this what I make
People be?

Should I go away and hide
Never to see others
Or the outside
But would I stop another's
Pain and be the only one that ever cried

What is a life with no grey
When everyone is sad
I'd give it all away
It wouldn't be that bad
I would finally be able to say

I saved a life

just another girland I can't understand
the loneliness I feel
Stuck in a sea of faces
knowing none of them are real
screaming, fighting, shouting
calling out in vain
no one ever listens
they only know my name
assimilate, I beg myself
be just another girl
society is too far linked
to not find a mask in this world

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Can't Be Saved

by ~xxAgonisticMiseryxx, Dec 8, 2012, 7:35:24 PM
Literature / Poetry / Romantic / General / Urban & Spoken Word

I tried to save myself
But I'm as hopeless as before
So, I uncap the bottle;
Swallow the pills and fall to the floor

I'm laughing on the way down
Smiling as my head hits the ground
Because what's lost, as they say,
Can never be found

So my soul travels the universe
On a barren alienated path
Death played a joke,
But I had the last laugh

I didn't go to Heaven
And I didn't go to Hell
I've been caught in between
Since the moment that I fell

When you see my corpse
Will you die to?
Will you go the grave
Knowing that my reason was you?

Did you realize that
You were in my last thoughts?
That trying not to love you
Was the last battle I ever fought?

Or when you see my corpse
Will you quickly look away?
And will she always be with you
As my body rots and decays?

Will she be there to comfort you
When you realize that I died?
I doubt you felt anything,
Regarding my suicide

You'll feel no sadness or loss
You won't have a single regret
I would want you to remember me;
But I know you'll surely forget

But I don't know what you know
So, just know what's honestly true;
That no matter how many times I said otherwise,
I never stopped loving you

Can't Be Savedby ~xxAgonisticMiseryxx

Literature / Poetry / Romantic / General / Urban & Spoken Word

Worry not,
This is ancient contemplation.

love 5 5

joy 1 1

~~wow 0 0~~

~~mad 0 0~~

sad 1 1

~~fear 0 0~~

~~neutral 0 0~~

~killargothy Dec 11, 2012 Hobbyist Photographer

i loved it.. thats exactly how i feel.
this actually reminded me of the song "Believe" by BOTDF.

~xxAgonisticMiseryxx Dec 11, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

*looks song up*
Hey, I kinda like that song.
BOTDF is pretty good. (:

~killargothy Dec 12, 2012 Hobbyist Photographer

theyre awesome but i pretty much fangirl over BVB. im glad u like BOTDF

~xxAgonisticMiseryxx Dec 16, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

BVB Is ok to. I really love Coffin, and Fallen Angels. (:

~killargothy Dec 17, 2012 Hobbyist Photographer

cool noone else in my school even knows who they are *tears up*

~xxAgonisticMiseryxx Dec 19, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

I am so sorry! ):
Yeah mine either, I introduced a few people to them,
And then it went entirely mainstream.
I was kind of pissed.

~killargothy Dec 21, 2012 Hobbyist Photographer

gawd thats awful. i feel bad for you now... ):

~xxAgonisticMiseryxx Dec 24, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Yeah.....

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~Amooon Dec 9, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Really enjoyed reading that. The ryhmes in every paragraph/verse made my ears enjoy listening to my mind reading to myself silently.
Love, the reason for most suicidal incidents.

~xxAgonisticMiseryxx Dec 10, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Thanks

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